Zadie Smith, White Teeth
Santorini - Greece (von mariusz kluzniak)
— Sylvia Plath, “Lady Lazarus,” from Ariel: The Restored Edition (via lifeinpoetry)
It’s never really a brain tumor.
That’s a paranoid fantasy you have when, in reality, you have chronic migraines. Or you need new glasses. Maybe you are stressed.
I thought all of those things over the last three months, as my headaches gradually ramped up in intensity.
The headaches were joined by a steadily increasing nausea — we’re talking throw-up-all-over-yourself-in-Atlanta-rush-hour nausea. When it reached the point that I couldn’t keep down a sip of water and a Zofran, I decided it was time for the ER.
So there were hours of waiting, followed by a CT scan, and finally information started to trickle in: There was swelling in my brain. Then there was an MRI, and the information solidified.The swelling was caused by a tumor.”